i guess it is about time i update this this thing before i forget everything that has happened in the past four weeks! i can hardly remember what i did fifteen minutes ago, although i am sure it either involved a bottle or a diaper, so bare with me as i try to recall the events post children's mercy. we ended up having to stay at children's mercy an extra twenty-four hours past the day we were set to be released which almost put me over the edge. long story short, we ended up with a nurse on his first night on the job who became over-zealous and gave potter oxygen in middle of the night when she did not need it. it was probably the most frustrating twenty-four hours of the whole stay. it was so painful because we knew the doctor was making us stay because such event was charted and they didn't want to be liable should something happen when we got home, which they did not at all forsee. don't get me wrong, if the doctor told us either one of them needed to stay because of genuine concern, i would have stayed the entire year, it was just overwhelming to know that we were there to cover someones tail. i guess, on the bright side, there was nothing wrong with her but at that point we were so ready to go home it was absolutely heartbreaking to find out we would be there another night. and everyone kept saying "it's only another twenty-four hours" which made me want to kill people. another twenty-four hours in the hospital where you have already spent the previous three weeks seems like a lifetime. nonetheless, the next morning came and we were finally on our way home! josh drove, and i rode in back with the babes. it felt so good to be free as cheesy as that sounds. it made me happy to have sunlight on all of our faces. they seemed to enjoy it as well and did not make a peep the whole drive home. the second we got home it finally felt like all was right with the world again.
the first two weeks josh stayed home with us which was nice because it really allowed us to get settled into a routine. one of the silver linings of staying at children's mercy for so long was we had already figured a lot of stuff out and managed to have the girls on a schedule. we feel very blessed as they are both really good babies. they both definitely have their own personality already but are very much alike in their temperament. all of the things that seemed impossible before...holding them simultaneously, feeding them simultaneously, changing five thousand diapers a day...we could now write a book on. when josh had to go back to work and i had to figure out how to do all of those things solo was one of the most terrifying experiences ever but we survived. and quite well i might add. its always worse than you think it is going to be in your head. their big brother, kemper, has been absolutely wonderful. at least one hundred times better than i could have imagined. i can't wait until they are big enough that the three of them can play together. actually, i don't want that to come too soon but can imagine it will be a lot of fun.
of course, we have had a few bumps in the road. potter is really congested all of the time which the doctor said is completely normal. i just hate feeling like i can't do anything for her. she sounds absolutely awful sometimes. i have nursed them both exclusively until this weekend when we had to begin supplementing with formula because i developed infectious mastitis early in the week which caused my supply to drop. i had heard about mastitis and what it was but could have never imagined it could be so painful. i had a temp of nearly 102 for three days accompanied by the worst chills and body aches i have ever had. and i can't even begin to put into words how my boobs feel. i had to stop nursing them and pump exclusively until i am healed and then hopefully my supply will increase to what is was before and they can go back to getting only breast-milk. breastfeeding two babies is definitely a labor of love but i truly enjoy it. it gives me an opportunity to bond with each baby individually which i enjoy. although, sometimes in middle of the night i am not sure which baby i am bonding with:) a couple of weeks ago they began sucking on each others heads when they get hungry which is probably the most adorable thing i have ever seen. finley's hair will literally be matted up in the back where potter sucks on it. i have lots of video i can use to blackmail them in the future.
i know i say this every time, but i am going to get better about updating this thing. i know i didn't include a lot of details today but i felt i needed to get everyone caught up and then i can start documenting all of the funny -and not so funny- stuff that they do. even if it is just to jot down a quick paragraph, i know i need to get these stories out while they are still in my head. josh and i both feel so incredibly blessed that we finally have our babes. it truly feels as if everything in life has come full circle. we are so grateful to everyone who has supported us on this journey. a very special thanks to everyone who helped while we were in children's mercy and since we have been home. i honestly don't know how we would have eaten if it weren't for so many wonderful friends and family members. i am pretty sure you could not find two happier - or more sleep deprived - people on the planet right now. josh and i are both happier than we could ever be with our new family. much love to all.
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