snow angel(s)

i have been sitting here for five minutes with my fingers lingering over the keys wondering how i should begin this post.  the word's "i'm pregnant" still seem like only a version of the truth at this point but the truth is just that.  i'm pregnant.  holy hell, what do i do now?

we embarked on our snow-filled adventure to our hotel last night with the car loaded with blankets, water, warm clothes, enough of my meds to last 4 days in case we were to get stranded, and a shovel.  the drive wasn't bad at all and we arrived to our home for the evening safe and sound.  we went out for a bite to eat, watched three episodes of it's always sunny in philadelphia (always a nice distraction) and called it a night.  of course i did not sleep a wink.  i finally surrendered to the thoughts swirling in my brain at 5:00 and got up.  i turned on the television to find nothing but bad weather reports on every station.  the blizzard was really coming.  we decided around 6:00 to head to the panera bread company right across from our hotel and grab a bite to eat which by this time the snow had started coming down.  we made it to rrc just fine but it was probably the scariest part of the drive as we were immersed in rush hour traffic.  i couldn't help but wonder what kind of jobs all of these people had that could not be put off for a day due to the impending snow storm that was becoming more and more clear was not another mistake by  meteorologists.  upon arriving to the hospital (rrc is attached to overland park regional) i gained a better understanding of where some of them might have been headed.  we got there around 7:00, early as usual, but they went ahead and snuck us in early since we had the long jaunt back to the 'burg ahead of us.  i was in and out in less than three minutes.  i must say, i no longer have any fear whatsoever of needles.

the snow was really coming down now but fortunately the highways weren't all that bad and we had no trouble at...until we got to the 'burg.  we tried to make it up the first hill towards our house and ended up having to slide back down it!  we finally found a safe route home and were able to get settled in only to sit by the phone and wait for it to ring.  it felt like a lifetime but we finally got a call from marge just after noon.  she started the conversation with "i am calling with good news"  which is oddly enough how i had been rehearsing it in my head for the last several weeks.  everything after that is somewhat of a blur.  she told me that my hcg level is 180 and i asked if that was good and she responded "it's excellent."  she told me i need to go back in thursday for another blood test.  this is standard procedure, they like for the hcg to double every 48 hours.  hopefully by then the roads will be in better condition.

after the call, josh and i hugged each other for about thirty seconds before we both started busting out laughing.  after several minutes of laughing he said "i have no idea why we are laughing."  i didn't either but i can tell you it was one of the best feelings i have had in a very long time.  of course, we are not out of the woods yet.  we have no reason to suspect that things will not continue perfectly but it is still very early on.  i am trying not to shout it from the roof tops just yet.  i realize that may seem a tad bit ridiculous as i have launched every sorted detail out into cyberspace but i imagine everyone can understand where i am coming from.  forgive us if we do not call right away with a big announcement, we just want it to feel right for us when we do.  i plan to ask more questions on thursday and will hopefully have more details at that time.  in the meantime, we are going to take advantage of being snowed in and finally get some much needed r and r.  we appreciate all of the positive energy that everyone has been sending our way and have not doubt it has helped immensely.