swimming lessons

i am now able to post some additional information we learned from dr. brabec at our follow-up appointment.  not only do they suggest that we use an egg donor, but because of the quality of josh's sperm they would like us to use a sperm donor as well to attempt to fertilize some of the eggs retrieved.  this is just one more thing that increases our chances of getting some viable embryos.  this basically means were they to retrieve ten eggs they would attempt to fertilize five of them with josh's sperm and five of them with the sperm donors sperm.  lucky for us, josh and i are both blessed with baby-makin' siblings and our sperm donor has a name...jason!  we know jason too is capable of creating a beautiful, healthy baby.  i didn't want to post this information until we had the chance to speak with him and jodi about it.  i know this additional information raises a lot of new questions and I will do my best to explain.

after egg retrieval they will attempt to fertilize all of the eggs with the same procedure as before except this time they will use part of  josh's sperm and part of  jason's.  they will keep all of the embryos separate so at the time of transfer we will know which ones are transferred.  we won't have to wonder the rest of our lives which ones were used.  so, basically, everything is the same as our last go around except we will use cassidy's eggs, and some sperm from josh and some from jason.  clear as mud?

we will know more after our consultation which will be sometime in august.  i am still waiting to hear back from them.  cass and i had to take over all of her medical records from the past five years before they would schedule the appointment which we did last thursday.  they should email me today or tomorrow with possible appointment times.  i do know from the research that i have done so far that they have to line up both of our cycles and i am not clear what that entails.  i will have to do some injections but cass will be doing all of the hard work this time.  she has agreed to do anything i ask her to in regards to getting healthy except juicing:)  that is where she draws the line:)  she created two beautiful babies already on a diet of funyuns, mountain dew and menthol cigarettes so i am not too worried;)  kind of makes me wonder why i did so much to get healthy...

while i am anxious to get started, i am glad we have some downtime before we do.  if we thought this was overwhelming before, it is ten fold now.  i am going to try to shed some weight and get my body into shape before the next cycle.  i lasted one day on my juice detox but i think it still helped get some of the residual toxins from all of the meds i was on out of my body.  my mom and bill gave me their treadmill so i am hoping by placing it next to our bed where i have to look at it forces me to use it...we will see how that goes.  so far my ulcer or acid reflux or whatever it was has not reared its ugly head again and hopefully it stays that way.

i will update as soon as i hear news of our appointment....i was really hoping they would have called already.  it sounds crazy but i will feel so much better when the appointment is on my calender and i can begin the countdown.  hopefully i will have something to report soon!